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Friday, April 13, 2007
9:50 PM
my new blog! sadly, started by something sad...
wow! i actually started a blog! all hail my effort!!! claps!!!
to think 2yrs ago i tot blogging and friendster was dumb... LOOK WHAT I'M DOING NOW!!!! well, i still hold to the opinion that friendster is dumb, but change my perception on blogging, THAT'S Y I'M HERE!! actually wanted to start it several wks back, but didn't have a camera to support this blog, so would be quite dry and boring... & NO!!! i still don't have a camera, it's just that something happened this wk that striked me pretty badly... i wanna record it down b4 i lose the precious lesson just learnt...
oh well it just the all famous event of SYF... went to watch my band on tues... stupid daniel, pang seh me ah?!?! anyway, U GUYS DID WELL IN YOUR EFFORT!!!! with that realistic sunrise and a total ownage for incantation and dance, esp the perc section... the moment it ended, i think MOST of the alumni agreed that we would get a gold with honours without question... n so the atmosphere was quite relaxed until the results came...
shocking things do happen... "band no.25, catholic high school, SILVER"
stun...
stone...
blank...
WHAT THE H*** HAPPENED!?!?!
it took time for MOST ppl to adjust to the shock - chssb members, teachers, conductress, alumni alike!!!! den they did the band cheer amidst all the low-down atmosphere n went out for debriefing and prayer... yes crying scenes... i just couldn't get tears out of me... just couldn't understand...
went back with them to cat high to get excuse letter... i think during debriefing the best question asked was by mr heng,"would u have done the same if u were given 1 more chance?" thinking still... can't get a answer... probably yes... alrite i'm not here to comment on the judges n judging criteria... it just... haiz... what was the reason... someone mentioned that he was disgusted by the fact that chssb thought they should have deserved better than silver... commented that the sections in incantation & dance sounded like mud throwing sessions... i really don't understand now... WHAT WENT WRONG?!?!?!?! is it that we went too extreme? in our sound, in our volume, in our emotions? what exactly is music? honestly, i still think our everything is fine, mayb just a LITTLE too much, but definitely much that is ends up in silver... if so, den what is enough? what level of emotions is counted enough and what is counted excess? if that was too much, then whatever principles i've held to for the past 4yrs is probably crap... even worse, i'm to blame for the silver rite now... i'm confused... very confused...
today, when the malay dance went up announcing about their results, my tears just came out... i could just see the same scenario as i saw for chssb... unfair to them, u may say... but what to do? that is life... they have done their utmost best n the results doesn't matter a single bit... it ain't about the final product or award... it's the process that matters... n that moment when they all did their utmost best... corruption? personal interpretation? i say again, i'm not gonna comment about the judges or judging criteria here... whatever it is, nj is definitely proud of u, malay dance... mayb lynette was rite... does gold or gwh neccessary mean good?
on the brighter side, had sectionals on thurs aftnoon with an xtra jeffrey (no offense)... the fun part was the last 1-2hrs... hehehe... kept talking about the past... playing our previous band pieces... haha YES me showing off my crappy skills... me quarelling with cindy over whose tone is nicer (me liking hers better and she liking mine better! ironic eh?) anyway we had fun playing the syf pieces over n over n over again... trying different methods each time... going different floors n playing together on separate floors... going faster and faster each time... singing at the top of our voices (poor cindy and anthony)... honestly, these ppl are very good... cindy's tone rox and anthony on the piccolo too... oh well... i beta do something about myself...
oh well... napfa tmr... i'm so gonna fail the silver standard... the only good news is... drumroll.................. i grew by 1cm!!!! hey that's a feat already u noe... oh well... n they going ailin's hse aft that... but i got band... sorry... i so wanna go lah... n heard that shoo's gonna watch phantom of the opera tmr... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......
well that's all for today... wish me luck for my napfa...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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