maybe it's all just part and parcel of life... to experience the downs b4 u savour the ups!!!! i will just have to tide through every crisis facing me, if not i'll nvr reach where i want to... ytd i went for my chssb concert n finally got to see miss tan conducting again... for those who have nvr seen her conducting b4 it's really a lost... cos she taught me alot of things through her conducting that i probably wouldn't be the MUSICIAN i am now!!!! she's not like any other conductor that just goes up to work on the technique or goes on the podium to beat time LIKE SOME CONDUCTORS DO!!!! she really makes music, bringing little aspects of life into music and making music come to life!!!! she knows no limits to expression of music and is one of the only conductors i have seen go ALL THE WAY just to make music, NOT BEING RESTRICTED BY STUPID UNWRITTEN RULES OR NONSENSICAL COMMON PRACTICES!!!! seeing her conduct ytd really made me think y do i want to conduct again... y did i even want to take up conducting in the first place? no doubt i have lost almost all of it now but seeing her in action really makes me inspired once again... i realise what i've been playing now is not at all music... far from it... when will i ever be a true musician? "A conductor or performer may be technically brilliant, but what matters is him being human." - Karajan

anyways, today was ndc (national day celebration)... yupp as expected spent the whole day in the band room... first playing cards... practiced a VERY LITTLE BIT of flute and finally realised my airspeed was really not fast at all... somebody HELP ME INCREASE MY AIRSPEED!!!! without airspeed all the music is really DEAD!!!!! (yes my flute tutor said that, n i doubted it at first, but den i began to realise the beauty of airspeed in music making!!!!! cos first having gud fast airpeed means ur diaphragm is providing VERY GUD support!!!!! two... hey i'm not gonna start a flute lesson cos i cmi myself!!!!) yipee glad that lisa is fine again (at least she looks fine to me today, as compared to ytd!!!!) and guo mama has somewhat recovered!!!! n ENJOYED PLAYING CARDS WITH U GUYS!!!!!! luv ya ppl!!!!!