just completed ff9 today again...

yes i noe it's a super old game... but it's my most favourite game ever... not that i'm much of a hardcore gamer... super meaningful and touching game... esp towards the end... super 感动 ending... nice nice... i play it like almost every long holiday lah!!!! the last time i played it i tink was last dec hols aft o's... but everytime i play it again, i dun get sianz at all... i learn so many lessons about live (YES THROUGH A GAME, NOT THROUGH THOSE IDIOTIC BOOKS OR STUPID PROJECT WORKS!!!!)... the main thing about ff9 is wat it really means to live... to find ur true purpose of existence... it has the most real lessons and most touching scenes ever... haiz i realise many anime and video games all have impt lessons and touching moments... yet adults keep thinking they're crap... yes i'm a child... n i really want to remain as one... i rmbred that the first time i got so moved to tears when watching smth was when i watched pokemon the first movie!!!! YES, NO JOKE!!!! NEITHER IS IT VERY FUNNY!!!! just shows how real they can be too... i think i can really add that point to my pw... haiz... oh well... the game is over again... shall wait til the next long hols... which i doubt will b very soon... cos next yr's a's so long hols r as good as gone!!!! den comes ns very soon aft a's... i dunno whether i'll still b playing it when i grow up...

i'm really sorry for causing so much misery and pouring a wet blanket over everything and making so many ppl worry... i dunnp what's wrong with me... there're some things which i cannot bring myself to face positively... and the worse is, 1 moment i think i have recovered, the next moment i realised i actually am still being bogged down by it... and everyday i have to face it yet again... somethings things i just can't take it lying down, thanks to my sucky competitive attitude... trust me, when u noe me well enuf, u'll nvr like me ever again... mayb u might not even want to talk to me at all...