ok... just now somebody (person a)
smsed me.. complained that i didn't trust him/her... because apparently he/she received a
sms from another person b... the person b was asking about something, which was part of person
a's duty...
ok so person a got worked up and fussed all over it.. so sent me an
sms say i didn't trust him/her... then i
smsed back, saying i didn't tell the person b to do person
a's job... i genuinely only informed person a regarding the matter and did not do anything person a accused me of... but person a still did not believe me... so i told person a: WHO DOESN'T TRUST WHO? then person a said: yea i dun trust u and cited one of my previous mistakes which was like quite some time ago... person a also said i shouldn't use
sms to convey important information... and so i told person a, my previous mistake was a genuine misunderstanding and i did correct it IMMEDIATELY when i learnt about the mistake... and i told person a i couldn't c them to tell them personally cos of the varied timetable and calling would be the most cost-incurring and inefficient method... and what's wrong with
sms anyway? i always loved using
sms because IT'S CLEAR IN BLACK AND WHITE!!!! oh then person a said it's the job requirement of a
bm and he/she was a
bm b4 and he/she did it... i didn't want to reply anymore... just a greater argument to follow... the thing is this...
1. if u were a
bm b4 y aren't u a
bm now? and being a
bm b4 u should know better than to bear grudges of scores long ago cos u jolly well know nobody can work well with a broken relationship...
2. so what if u did it? does it mean i have to do the same? have u ever reflected on whether what u did was the best? and PLEASE don't tell me all other
BMs do the same thing... so was it a habit to bind women's feet in the ancient
chinese tradition, that painful torturous process... and so were women treated like dirt in the past cultures... and so u say it's traditional practice and so we don't do anything is it? if a heritage is detrimental, u don't just sit there and do nothing... and you, of all people, a musician, should know that better... when it comes to high levels, there's no right or wrong, or supposed-to or not-supposed-to... y do the top notch conductors ALL BREAK THE RULES?!?!
3. i was first introduced to leadership with this statement:
if u think u are right, u ARE right.
if u dunno whether u are right, u ARE right.
the thing is like it or not people ONLY learn through mistakes and it's a fact... whether it's other's mistakes or
ur own... even if i did make that mistake, i did my every effort to correct it asap, and am as sensitive and careful as possible whenever i deal with similar issues again... if u choose to remain in that time frame and not move on, then it's too bad for u... but don't push the blame on anybody else...
4. like pap loves to say: it is evident the people have given ME the mandate and their votes... then u jolly well go with me... u can voice out your disagreements, u can say your comments... but the final decision, like it or not, still lies in me... if u still are as naive as to think of a democratic system, of all places, in band,
i'm sorry to disappoint u: it's
nvr going to happen... good band and orchestras or ANY music group function only by dictatorship... u should know better that big ensembles always follow a
hierarchical structure to maintain order... cos musicians being musicians all believe strongly in their own thoughts and principles... u don't like the system and please GET OUT OF IT!!!!! karajan was like that with the berlin phil... it IS dictatorship so trust me, if u really do piss me off, i WILL NOT HESITATE TO MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT FOR U AT ALL!!!! trust me...
anyway person a left me with the last words: don't get so worked up, yea? haha... i just feel like giving him/her a cold smile and ask: who's the one that is so worked up?