ARGGGGG!!!!! mood swings!!!!! i'm feeling really rotten now... just tried to prac flute, which ended up in an ultimate FAILURE!!!! i realised after band prac i've been using too much of my lips... i dunno which part, but it just feels very very tight and tense... zZzZz... tried doing some adjustments and other mini exercises, but all made it even worse... grrrrrrrrr... don't get me wrong, i'm not here again to say how much i suck and bla bla bla, 'cos i guess u're oso sick and tired of listening to it alr (hey but it's an undeniable fact!)... just needa vent my frustrations... but i shall rest and try again tmr... maybe my lips are tired ba...

i just can't stand flute teachers who don't teach carefully how to form your embrochure... exactly how to blow, where to focus, use which muscle... they just don't teach it right from the start... which really gets me irritated... no i'm not blaming my flute tutor or anything... yea she doesn't really do much on embrochure, and even if u ask her, somehow her replies don't help much, which gets u even more hopping mad!!!!!! i guess it's just personal experiences that shape up what they think is the most important to teach to their students... i have no doubt she is really good in teaching phrasing and musical shaping and expression... but sometimes, wait til like almost 5 yrs later and telling me my embrochure is totally wrong, i really cannot take it... all these years JUST FOR NOTHING!!!!!!! n worse, you have to start ALL OVER AGAIN, at a time when u NEED to be somewhat your best and cannot be having crappy tone 'cos u're changing embrochure... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

唉... 只好希望明天会更好吧... poof...