just finally finished another batch of tiring things - band farewell/annual dinner!!!! well actually wasn't really tiring for me lah, but it's really very stressful for the WAOs actually ever since they took up the position, yet somehow they dun complain, they dun slack, they just do it!!!! and really, i seriously admire and am very envious of their attitude and seriously wonder whether u people have seriously picked the correct bm... maybe i shouldn't even have ran to be one, if not maybe band wouldn't be such a screw up, neither have such crappy holidays... get someone else to replace me please? 'cos either theresa or daniel is much more capable of leading than me (yes, finally i'm mentioning their names)... and at the end of the whole event, Mr. Ho finally said a very willing good job to me and wensi... hahaha i should be happy right? hahaha but knowing how little i have actually contributed to this event, and with all the incessant whinings, i guess that comment was never meant for me... hahaha how ironic... (hahaha is really not a happy laughter here, so please, don't take it that i'm joking...)

anyway, i left this really ugly burn on my hand while trying to take the chicken out from the oven, and now the looks of it is totally gross... and i think i'm very evil to my section... every single one of them... i left xiang yin waiting at tanah merah mrt for almost an hour, and then came and even forgot to say a sorry... i only bothered lum with more worries and sorries for having to excuse herself from band events, because of valid reasons... i really can't help ant in at least helping to manage the section while he's really busy and treated cruelly... i couldn't make tonight's event at least attendable by guo and saw... i ACTUALLY MISSED OUT LYNN AND BEATRICE FOR TONIGHT!!!!!! RAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! HOW WOULD U FEEL IF U WERE LEFT OUT OF SUCH AN EVENT??!?!?!?!!? I SERIOUSLY OUGHT TO GO BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL TIL I JUST DIE!!!!!!!!