i think journey is a really beautiful and meaningful song...

i'm quite jealous of people who have a really bonded class... though i'm not in the class, but definitely i can sense their togetherness and bondings around the class... i believe it's not easy that a class could actually become so together, and i am touched by what they really do for each other... it's not something that comes easy, but they've got it... maybe there's a reason behind all this, but whatever that is, the class will definitely remember their moments together, years after... too bad i can never have a class that's like that... this is probably my last class of my life, n regretfully, neither do i wanna bond together with them... dunno y, but seeing them, i just don't feel like... to think i don't even know some of their names to date... ha ha ha...

i think most precious memories of childhood leaves together with jc... it marks the end of your dreamy world and starts the nightmare of the harsh realities of life... i really don't have the courage to step on, to move right on... it's like giving up all these wonderful happy memories and moving on into a totally alien and cold world... it's quite scary that i don't even have much of a recollection of the primary school years... it's really scary... who knows how long (or short) will i take to forget most of my current life? 1yr? 2yrs? yet to move on is a must, unless u rather be a mentally handicapped person... but that means really letting go of everything... yupp yea yea u still can maintain contact bla bla bla... but how long can u sustain it? 1st wk of sec1 my best friend from primary school still called me and chatted over the phone... 1st term holiday of sec1 we went to watch a movie... after that i nvr saw him again except for tchr's day when i go back to school... hahaha so much for being best friends... the whole ideology of 不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有 is really scary... it's just saying everything will fade someday... yes i know it'll fade, n it's just really scary... worse, if th ending turns foul and friends turn foes... it automatically erases EVERYTHING that was good previously, just because of one probably childish incident...

how ironic is life, when u rather had not lived...