RAAAAHHHHHH!!!! oh manZ today has been a day of ups and downs!!!!!

started off with me trying to prac flute in the morn... but IT SOUNDED TOTALLY HORRIBLE!!!!! n i'm really dead serious :( it's like all along i've always been sounding bad, but today was really down to a level beyond redemption manZ!!!!!!!!!! my high notes have become piercing beyond tolerence, the low notes airy and crappy, middle register toneless... spoilt REALLY CROOKED embrochure... RAAAAHHHHH!!!! ok then i told myself to just hope for the better during nie prac and stay happy :)

then went to find retard working at the expo... oh manZ i was really really late 'cos i went to get gummies... and the stupid cashier was really crappy n she screwed up many many things n so the whole queue was just waiting for like 15-20mins... n mind u i was just after the problem customerS so yea i can't imagine how furious the rest were behind me... oh well but i guess it's just a down-hill day for her n i think she really feels terrible... yea we all get such days some/many times...

anyway after that went to find carmen to find lum... oh manZ i realise i am really a frog in the well (井底之蛙)... it's like this is the first time i've ever been to expo and i'm getting lost lah... then i was trying to find carmen and we passed each other without even knowing it!!!! she went out to find me and i went in to find her!!!!!! wa how idiotic can i be?!?!?!? finally found her and then went to find retard... took quite a long time, so yea RETARD AIN'T THAT BLIND AFTER ALL!!!!!! but well we were quite hesitant on whether to approach her anot and were staring from afar... gave her 2 calls but she didn't realise... then finally carMAN went to lum and found her!!!!!!! haha DUN CRY DUN CRY NO NEED SO 感动!!!!!!!! and seriously, i really 佩服 retard!!!!!! if it's me, first i wouldn't even bother applying for a job given my lazy and spoilt character!!!!! 2nd, i think i won't be able to sell even any laptop lor... oh manZ y must ALL the girls i know be so zai!??!!?!?! (this sounds so sexist!!!!!) so WHO says this is a male dominated world?!?!?!? and anyway yea we delivered the gummies and went off very soon, cos didn't want the disturb lum from working (that's the MAIN reason ok!?!?!?) and we were going to be late for nie prac too!!!!

yupp that was the happy part of the day... rushed dinner down my stomach and headed to nie... as usual not many ppl again... actually pathetically few ppl... but flutes got more ppl today... SADLY, NONE FROM MY CHICKY SECTION CAME :'-( LEFT ME ALL SO ALONE!!!!!!! oh manZ and i really sounded bad, like worse than what the morning gave me so i only felt very rotten... zZzZz... just wanted to go home manZ... but oh well i stayed on... n it turned out not so bad... no i dun mean my playing but the pieces played... oooooo lengendary prelude and to the sea is really beautiful... esp to the sea (if i'm not wrong of the title)... oh man it's almost near infinite sky alr... but infinite sky's nicer :) anyway and the person beside me wasn't all so tao so i didn't feel that bad... and he played OK (not like very nice but ok lah) despite having a bad sore throat, oh man i feel so pale in comparison in my playing...

anyway band ended quite late and here i am talking to u... although i dunno who u are... hahah music lesson in 7 hrs time... WHAT AM I DOING HERE?!?!?!?! hahahaha yea n the hopes of organising another visit with the chicky section this time to c retard is bleak... oh manZ EVERYBODY'S SICK!!!!!!! n mama's having fever!!!!!!! rest well ya? hopefully u recover soon and we can all go c lum together!!!!!! me loves my section...

well u can c my whole day other than visiting lum has not been good but i shall, for the sake of some people, remain happy and smiley!!!!! => now u know y's the title INTERNAL CONFLICT?