the more i hear about it, the worse i feel... it really ain't as easy for me as it may be for the rest of you... i am really not the somewhat nice figure u seem to imagine me to be... i am a narrow-minded, competitive, selfish, childish, overbearing, domineering person... yet i imagine myself to be all that perfect and condemn others... n it really does hurt me, after hearing more and more about everything... take it that i'm a bloody f***er... i just cannot bear with it anymore... u may say it doesn't really matter, but IT DOES TO ME!!!! i realise there are many problems but yet i still want to blindly go ahead with it... RAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!