And now I'm all alone again Nowhere to go no one to turn to, Did not want your money sir I came out here coz i was told to And now the night is near Now I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night When everybody else is sleeping I think of him and then I'm happy With the company I'm keeping The city goes to bed And I can live inside my head.
On my own Pretending he's beside me All alone, I walk with him till morning Without him I feel his arms around me And when I lose my way I close my eyes And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver All the lights are misty in the river In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight And all I see is him and me for ever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind That I'm talking to myself and not to him And although I know that he is blind Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him But when the night is over He is gone, the river's just a river Without him the world around me changes The trees are bare and everywhere The streets are full of strangers
I love him But every day I'm learning All my life I've only been pretending Without me his world will go on turning A world that's full of happiness That I have never known!
I love him I love him I love him But only on my own
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today was just a piling of nice and nasty moments, so much so that i feel really exhausted now... there were times when i felt really depressed... and there were really very hurting moments... i don't know if it's just me that's too sensitive and over-reacting over minor incidents or that i still that very spoilt child who demands so much and throws tantrums whenever he doesn't get it... yet amongst all these unhappiness, there were really beautiful moments too, though brief, but really nice... really great THANKS to lisa who spent her very limit financial resources to buy the sweets from japan!!!!!! TO THINK SHE WAS STILL THINKING OF US THERE!!!!!!! YEA IT'S REALLY BEEN A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG TIME SINCE I'VE SEEN THAT VERY HAPPY LISA FACE!!!!!! OH AND I MUST REALLY APOLOGISE TO MAMA AND BIG BOSS FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO BUY UR BREAKIE!!!!! SOORRRRRRIESSSSS!!!!!! MADE U ALL SO HUNGRY!!!!!!! SORRRIEESSS!!!!! but now the great and depressing moments all jumble up together i can't really decide what to feel... or how i'm feeling... i just know it doesn't feel good... n i hope i'm seriously just over sensitive for most of the things that happened today...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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+ andrew - idiot, bastard no.3, and a jerk
+ qihua (1997-2002), chs (2003-2006), njc (2007-2008)
+ 27th JUNE (now u noe what to do!!!!)
+ once a member of CHSSB, NJCSB
+ wishes to be forgiven
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