i dunno lah... i feel really useless now... on one hand i know i dun mean it this way... not to hurt... not to torture... yet i know if... IF i ever go back i'll still... screw up the whole system... i know i will... 'cos i know the person i am... i'm glad the section is already enough without me... so is the exco - all of u are really functional and better off without me, I KNOW AND IT SHOWS!!!! so what if i turn happier? will the situation ever improve with me in it? so what if i go back in participation as if nothing has happened? will u all ever be this happy again when u were all without me? dun deny ur happiness, 'cos i can tell... at the end of the day, i'm not a suitable person to join u all 'cos i'm just destroying things for u all, destroying music, destroying happiness, destroying life... u're mayb not happy now, but i'm very certain u'll be more upset when i'm around... a replacement is good... to boost the atmosphere... new clicks are forming... best for replacing the old crappy ones... if there's one thing that u ever want to do for me, that is to GIVE UP!!!!