i'm beginning to really suffer from the consequences of my actions... but i NEVER SAID it was a bad thing... it's only the best remaining thing that i can do left...

i'm still learning to let go... to let go of those really precious to me... it's not gonna be easy at all, and not only for me...

i saw once again how sucky i was yesterday... have went horrible and detestable well beyond my imagination and expectations... i never thought i would be like that...

u'll just get used to it... sooner or later... better sooner than later...

it's the only best remaining thing i can do for u...