oh well i deserve this retribution anyway... trying to get used to a new life now... actually not really new... just a lonelier life... so envious when i hear of them having so much fun and laughter... i know very clearly it couldn't have been so without me, so no matter what i feel now, i know i won't regret... it's great to c smiles on their faces again... if assuming that i didn't care at all would help u ignore and forget me them all the more i should be indifferent to whatever that happens... will miss ya guys, but HELL NO REGRETS!!!!!