yea... that's me... i'm really sorries to have put all of u through this... n after those few smses with u just now, i know even more clearly i've been a very very lousy and inconsiderate friend... n the more u deny it the more i'm sure u're faking it and it's not the truth... and that ultimately, i suck big time as a friend, past caring of all ur feelings, ur problems, ur life... only mine matters... i'm really sorry to u people... but to SOME people, i can only be sorry but i'll not stop... 'cos precisely 'cos u people are my friends, the more i can spoil your lives for u... and the only best way to do that, is for me to disappear, to totally vanish out of ur lives... only then will u all experience true happiness, play true music, and truly live ur lives, not for others, definitely not for me, but ur ownselves... i suck big time as a friend and ur smses convince me even more... it's bullshit to claim i dun, it's probably the biggest lie i've ever heard, second to me being pro in flute... lies, lies, lies... they seem everywhere now... just for the sake of comforting me... just for the sake of cheering me up... but what's the point if my pathetic life is just based on nothing but a pack of lies? i'm really a pathetic person... and no doubt.. the suckiest friend on earth... just... forget me...

i'm really sorry for that, n i din expect u to be so gravely affected.. it really is my fault for being such a lousy leader... i'm really really sorry... n i noe because of this problem, it leads to another even more serious problem that u've been resenting all this while... i'm sorry i couldn't do anything in my capacity... i noe it's my job... n i really suck... i ain't as pro as the rest of the exco, ANY of them... i really can't make it... i'm sorry...