ya i'm the one at fault lah... ya i'm always the childish one... ya i'm don't think deeply about things before proceeding... ya i'm the lousy one, n u all have to babysit me... ya i'm to blame for attendance problems lah... ya lah i never thought about recruitment stuff... ya lah i never thought of ways to solve the problem... ya lah i'm always the one with the bad tone lah... ya lah i'm always the one dragging the whole section down lah... ya i'm the one causing this break down lah... ya lah i love to reject u all for meals and outings lah... ya i love to give u all that face lah... ya lah i dun want to play well lah... ya lah i'm the one who always causes trouble lah... ya lah i flare up at people whom i 'supposedly' call 'friends' anytime i like lah... ya lah i'm running away lah... ya lah i'm irresponsible and always 'tired' lah... ya lah i'm causing so much unhappiness lah... ya lah i am the problem n u all are very nicely trying to help lah... ya lah i never thought about the section lah... ya lah i treat my friends like dirt lah... ya lah i'm the one to blame for everything lah... HAPPY NOW?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! MY FUCKING FAULT THAT IDIOTIC PEOPLE DUN KNOW WHAT IS CALLED INITIATIVE?!?!?!? MY FUCKING FAULT THAT I NEVER DO THINGS IN YOUR PERSPECTIVE?!?!?!?!?! MY FUCKING FAULT THAT THIS SECTION IS FALLING APART?!??!!??!? MY FUCKING FAULT THAT PEOPLE ARE NOT ATTENDING REGULARLY?!?!?!??!?!?! MY FUCKING FAULT U DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING THAT I DON'T?!?!?!?!?!?!?! MY FUCKING FAULT THAT I DIN TAKE ACTION RIGHT IN YOUR FACE?!?!?!?!?!?! YA LAH!!!!!! MY BLOODY FAULT FOR EVERYTHING LAH!!!!!!!

I TOLD U ALL TO JUST IGNORE ME - U ALL REFUSED TO!!!! I TOLD U ALL TO JUST GET SOMEBODY ELSE - U SAID DUN COMPARE!!!!! I TOLD U ALL THAT I SUCKED - U ALL GAVE ME GROSSLY EXAGGERATED LIES EXALTING MY EVERY CHARACTER!!!!!!! YA LAH SO NOW IT'S MY FAULT LAH!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S Y FAULT FOR ALL THESE LAH!!!!!!! IT'S MY FAULT FOR BEING SO USELESS LAH!!!!!! IT'S MY FAULT FOR BEING SO IRRESPONSIBLE LAH!!!!!!! IT'S MY FAULT PRACTICING SO BLOODY HARD AND GET NOTHING WHILE OTHERS JUST GET IT INSTANTLY LAH!!!!!!! IT'S MY BLOODY FAULT THAT I'M SO LOUSY COMPARED TO OTHERS LAH!!!!!!!!! IT'S MY BLOODY FAULT FOR EVERYTHING LAH!!!!!! JUST FUCKING EVERYTHING LAH!!!!!!!!!

SO I'M THE HAPPINESS WRECKER LAH????? SO I'M THE INEFFECTIVE AND PASSIVE AND BRAINLESS AND NO INITIATIVE ONE LAH???????? SO I ENJOY REJECTING U ALL LAH!?!?!?!?!?! SO I ENJOY GOING HOME ALONE AND EATING ON MY OWN LAH??!?!?!?!?! SO I'M SUCH A LOUSY FRIEND LAH!!!!!!!!!!

U KNOW WHAT?!?!?!?! JUST FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!! MY LIFE IS ALREADY SCREWED ENOUGH WITH MY FUCKING CHARACTER!!!!!!!! I DUN NEED CONSTANT REMINDERS EVERYDAY OF WHAT I AM (N WHAT I AM NOT!!!!!) I DUN WANT TO HAVE TO NEED TO CONCERN MYSELF WITH WHETHER I'M BEING MEAN AND ALWAYS SHOUTING!!!!!! I DUN WANT TO PUSH MYSELF TO THE END SO AS TO HELP THE REST!!!!!!!!!! I DUN WANT TO DO ANYMORE SELF SACRIFICE FOR THE BETTER OF THE REST WHEN NOBODY JUST APPRECIATES IT!!!!!!!!! MY LIFE IS JUST SO FUCKED UP THAT U KNOW WHAT?????? I JUST WANT TO END IT!!!!! RIGHT NOW!!!!!!! I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!

U THINK U KNEW ME??????? WELL NOW U DO AND U SHOULD JUST LEAVE THIS PAGE IF U'RE TOTALLY DISGUSTED AT ALL THESE CRAP (IF U HAVEN'T DONE SO LONG AGO) FUCK U, FUCK ME, FUCK MY LIFE, FUCK THE WORLD, FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!