Saturday, April 26, 2008
7:08 PM
7:08 PM
the past few days were just pure mood swings...
happy moments? i guess had a few... at least spa is all over now... but that means my wednesdays are really bad - double double tutorials!!!! oh manZ... i'm already sleeping for chem last wk, let alone 2 consecutive double tutorials now... hopefully i can survive...
listened to anthem, sun and moon, and on my own excessively over youtube... all started because i saw the on my own song lyrics and link on minlu's blog, which tempted me to continue watching all the way, though i'm really tired... well i guess we all are...
screw spa!!!! din finish skill a, only did reliabilities half way... watever lah... same thing happened for chem too... i guess my jc life ended as soon as last year ended - with band...
and u people... the more i c that countdown, the worse it gets... 42 more days as of today... ha... really mocking - to think all along i had wanted it to come nearer to the concert and step down, and now i miss everybody even when i haven't passed out yet... i guess my heart was just too tired after lisa and yuxin left that i just became selfish and din want to get hurt anymore... the end result? i single handedly destroyed the entire section... and hurt so many people... i'm seriously a sick jerk...
i'm worried... about somebody...
happy moments? i guess had a few... at least spa is all over now... but that means my wednesdays are really bad - double double tutorials!!!! oh manZ... i'm already sleeping for chem last wk, let alone 2 consecutive double tutorials now... hopefully i can survive...
listened to anthem, sun and moon, and on my own excessively over youtube... all started because i saw the on my own song lyrics and link on minlu's blog, which tempted me to continue watching all the way, though i'm really tired... well i guess we all are...
screw spa!!!! din finish skill a, only did reliabilities half way... watever lah... same thing happened for chem too... i guess my jc life ended as soon as last year ended - with band...
and u people... the more i c that countdown, the worse it gets... 42 more days as of today... ha... really mocking - to think all along i had wanted it to come nearer to the concert and step down, and now i miss everybody even when i haven't passed out yet... i guess my heart was just too tired after lisa and yuxin left that i just became selfish and din want to get hurt anymore... the end result? i single handedly destroyed the entire section... and hurt so many people... i'm seriously a sick jerk...
i'm worried... about somebody...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
12:05 AM
12:05 AM
i'm only suffering the consequences of my actions...
afterall, i'm the whole cause of all this...
should i even turn up tmr?
at least xy talked to me today... just a few words... but better than silence...
i've destroyed not only myself, but a family...
there was a time, when someone went: "spell family: f-l-u-b-o-e-s"
i ruined it...
making life miserable for everybody...
i finally got my wish fulfilled - nobody cares...
NOBODY!!!!
i'm reaping what i sow - retribution
afterall, i'm the whole cause of all this...
should i even turn up tmr?
at least xy talked to me today... just a few words... but better than silence...
i've destroyed not only myself, but a family...
there was a time, when someone went: "spell family: f-l-u-b-o-e-s"
i ruined it...
making life miserable for everybody...
i finally got my wish fulfilled - nobody cares...
NOBODY!!!!
i'm reaping what i sow - retribution
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Friday, April 18, 2008
1:28 AM
1:28 AM
so i finally broke down...
not 'cos of pressure of workload, not 'cos of overwhelming bm duties, but just by sheer knowledge that etude is 50 days away...
that means i won't much more time with all of u... anymore...
n the way i treated u all during this past few months...
i miss lisa and yuxin terribly... n i'm gonna miss the rest of u terribly soon...
i dread the day to come...
not 'cos of pressure of workload, not 'cos of overwhelming bm duties, but just by sheer knowledge that etude is 50 days away...
that means i won't much more time with all of u... anymore...
n the way i treated u all during this past few months...
i miss lisa and yuxin terribly... n i'm gonna miss the rest of u terribly soon...
i dread the day to come...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Tuesday, April 8, 2008
9:08 PM
9:08 PM
listening to riverdance now...
the week has been tiring... i realise i can be really cold-hearted... i just denied the existence of 2 dear friends... seriously hurts... i dunno already...
work is killing on way too fast... i've become a very slack band member... probably i already started hating band, like the rest of them...
sent an email to the exco and muco... dunno if it's just gonna more support or more haters...
how long more can i last?
the week has been tiring... i realise i can be really cold-hearted... i just denied the existence of 2 dear friends... seriously hurts... i dunno already...
work is killing on way too fast... i've become a very slack band member... probably i already started hating band, like the rest of them...
sent an email to the exco and muco... dunno if it's just gonna more support or more haters...
how long more can i last?
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008
9:19 PM
9:19 PM
Your EQ is 40 
Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
Your emotions definitely are giving you a hard time, and you definitely need to talk with someone.
You're often worried, apathetic, bored, or upset. You don't experience a lot of positive emotions.
You may be at risk for depression, anxiety, or other psychological problems.
Things can get better for you. But you have to take the first step.
Your emotions definitely are giving you a hard time, and you definitely need to talk with someone.
You're often worried, apathetic, bored, or upset. You don't experience a lot of positive emotions.
You may be at risk for depression, anxiety, or other psychological problems.
Things can get better for you. But you have to take the first step.
tell me about it...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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