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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
2:42 PM
it's not only recently that i found out how useless i really am...
n how much i really want to be forgiven...
it's been almost 4 months already... the most idiotic thing that happened... started by me... made life such a chore and mess for everybody... i wished to be a friend... yet became an enemy... people thought i din care... i singlehandedly destroyed everything... making things so ugly... now though after so long... things has somewhat died down... but i still can't talk to u... not that i hate u or i don't want to see u... but i'm just too ashamed and dunno how to face u... i created all this mess... i started it... n to think i even had the nerve to expect to be forgiven...
y do people treasure things only when they're almost gone... i tot i wouldn't be like that... i vowed never to be like that... how weak i am... i ended up worse than that... band term is almost ending... how long more, how long left... to make up with u... i don't dare try... because i'm the one who started it... it's really eating into me so much... halfway thru mugging, halfway thru exams, i realise i'm so affected and bothered by it, that i just don't wanna do that stupid paper... late nights not spent on cramming stuff into the head, but sorting out what really went wrong...
i hope i don't leave band with this... i'm tired... very tired... so tired that i can have mood swings within an mcq paper itself... how long more? how long left?
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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