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Thursday, June 19, 2008
1:45 AM
ok... i admit... i'm lonely... and sick of being lonely... i feel it's a joy n not a burden to have somebody to love u and to love that somebody too... (i'm not referring to ANY particular person at all) maybe not love i guess (not for me, i'm too...), but at least close friends to care for and be cared for by... this world just needs a little more love, to make it a beautiful place...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
12:45 AM
just saw somethings which made me very... nvm... no point dwelling...
anyway... yea, as usual, wasted my day away... but i really did plan to start this wk... cleared my table for like... erm... 15mins... then lost motivation altogether... decided to watch lord of the rings - return of the king again... learnt and realised lots of new stuff about life... and decided lord of the rings has really the most touching soundtrack of all!!!!! esp the james galways parts :P in the midst of it keep getting bugged by daniel... NO absolutely not that i dun like getting bugged by dan at all!!!!!! i really love my dear dan (as a friend of course >_-) he's the only one that talks to me nowadays over msn n all, except for grace and occasionally xiang yin... yea i lurve this ppl... n i wish u would too... but i noe it's impossible... grrrrrrr y am i thinking of all these stuff again...
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
12:32 AM
ok time to update?
yea it's been quite some time since i did... last was... erm... 1 week b4 etude? yea... n etude's over for a week alr... been wanting to blog about it, but haven't really got the time to be alone at the com... finally i am here...
well... etude's ok lah i guess... i think 1 major success of the concert is that ALL members really enjoyed PLAYING it, though i really must say that the music standard is definitely not there (must have been my fault, again...) i think it's really very difficult to produce 1 band with EVERYBODY enjoying it at that moment... at least not at that intensity that i felt that nite for etude :')
i've always asked myself, ever since i stepped up as bm, what's band? what's the definition of band? there are many, really... (i'm not referring the other kinds, like rock band or so) there are so many secondary and jc bands in singapore, so many band members, yet how many actually noe what's band, and have truly undergone through THE band experience? THE band experience here ain't just any other life of any other band member in any other band!!!! it's a journey, undertaken by those who have truly learnt and matured from the system and the 4/6/12 years in band, i feel... n ain't just any other member deligently going for band pracs can truly understand and go through the band experience... i really must say, few have really understood it...
i'm still a kid, but i've at least seen enuf school based bands to comment on them... there are those who just treat band like another cca (please note the condescending tone i have on the term CCA), including the conducters themselves... there are those who just want to have fun, make friends, and treat this as another group of make-merry friends... there are those, on the other extreme, who treat band like a cult religion, expecting full undivided attention, dedication and , yes, whorship (erm LTT?) finally, there r those, who i hope to b a part of, who seek true meaning and value of life through making music :) that i wish, and that i hope :D
a band is neither about gathering and bonding solely, nor about pure music brain washing... i think the most apt statement would be the overused motto by many other bands, just with a little tweak:
one band - one sound, one family
most other bands would stop at one band, one sound, which i feel would be slightly lacking in the connotation that "we're all in this together"... no doubt there's one band, but one band can mean anything - it can be one divided band, one lousy band, one... ANYTHING!!!! in the statement i gave, it introduces first that this is one band, and in one band, we produce one sound, and stay together as one family, aptly covering both the musical and belonging aspects of the word band...
and when i say one sound, one family, i really MEAN one unified sound, one united family...
many have sought to achieve this... some have seeked and yet haven't even found this statement to begin with... some understand perfectly this statement, yet, easier said than done, are unable to put into practice this vision... i dun dare claim that i have attained that, 'cos neither am i that good as a bm (i shud never have been in the first place), nor do i believe such an idealised state of utopia can be actually even glimpsed at, let alone grasped... but then again, just as it is the imperfections of music that makes music perfect, it is the process of trying to attain such a level that sees everybody growing and reaching for it... nobody will ever touch it, but all will gain from it, one way or another :)
so that's wat band is about, not to reach, not to perfect, not to entertain, n definitely NOT as a CCA (who even came out with that RUBBISH term!!!!) it's a searching journey, a process to investigate, but never to reach, to aim for but never to achieve, to always strive for
one band - one sound, one family!!!!
HOO YA!!!!
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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Monday, June 2, 2008
12:43 AM
1 week has finally passed!!!! dunno to be happy or sad...
the week has been tremendously tiring... band everyday, right from early morning til late night settling of all the schedules and everything... sorry bandits, i still screwed up lots of stuff... did lots of terrible things to the band, so much that now i'm breaking too... i guess it's just pure retribution...
ok shouldn't think too much... etude killing on fast... it's a WAR!!!!!! n i feel super unprepared and as if i'm about to die!!!!! RELP!!!! ok make it or break it!!!! PUSH ON!!!!! HOO YA!!!!!
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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