hi again :) it has been long since i had my midnight blogging habits :) but now i'm SO tired that i really dun feel like blogging too much though i want to blog very much.. yea i know ur faces will all go -.- if u read this ;P

tonight (or rather, last night) was v. nite, the really last project of my exco term.. honestly i would really say it was quite a failure, but i'm really not going to explain the reasons here again.. but thanks lisa for hearing me out and giving me an alternative view :) yea i know i abused ur listening ear like nobodsy's business ;P SORRY!!!!!!!

but she did set me thinking - should we dwell on our past mistakes? mistakes are really definite in life, but she told me that once it's over, it's over, and although so many mistakes were made, we're glad is over.. is that the view we're supposed to hold? just to get things done n over with? i really cannot forgive myself for causing so much misery to this band, for bringing so much failures.. i know u all may say it's not my fault, maybe to comfort, maybe u really think so, but definitely i've analysed for so long, even if it's not solely my fault, it's definitely a large part mine... i really regret doing alot of things, n i know regreting doesn't help at all, and neither is it going to change all those evil things i did.. i just know all these will haunt me for the rest of my life.. neither does saying sorry help.. on one hand i've to acknowlegde my faults, yet on the other hand, so what? so next time i can always commit a crime first, then say sorry lah!!!! i dunno lah, am i just really reflecting, or just dwelling to much in the past?

but in the end still.. thx lisa for lending a listening ear and helping me out here :) i will try to SMILE more :D :D :D