here i am again...

just like after o's... but this time... with so much a greater sense of uncertainty.. i really can't explain it..

reflection? i dun even want to think about the past yr.. honestly it has brought me so much horrible memories.. honestly.. n wat i hated most? ironically, my time in band.. and the reason y i'm so glad i have left my jc life behind..

i realised i have changed alot ever since i left cat high.. my outlook n perspective on life has degraded to extreme pessimism.. i c nothing in this life holding me back honestly.. if not for some friends and true concern, off the building i would have went.. did so many things i regreted this yr.. so many i dunno y i did despite knowing very well how bad it was.. to be honest, i feel like some very old person who is tired of life.. i noe, i have such a limited capacity of endurance and optimism.. i admit it ok? i'm so dead tired, i just want to slp n never wake up...

where am i?