Sunday, June 12, 2011
1:37 AM
1:37 AM
sometimes i really do think i live a really pathetic life. monotonous n boring with basically no interest in anything, so end up looking like a sua-gu. friends all chased away by yours truly, myself. capabilities are like zero, my musical abilities are really down the drain (if i had any to start with). i honestly dunno what i'm living for and i really really do want to breakdown n cry occasionally. what i have, i do not treasure. what i cannot attain, yet i hanker. i feel like a fucking loser who blames everybody for my fucked up life but actually have only myself to blame for everything. fml, seriously.
staying in fairyland is not doing me any good. but neither does waking up to reality appeal to me any better. i cannot stay put any longer, but i dun wanna move on at all, cos i see no future at all. not at all. only the pathetic dreams of talent and fame that i know i will never achieve but yet still think it possible.
slap me.
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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