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Tuesday, June 28, 2011
1:59 AM
yesterday, i turned 21.
no fanfare, no pompus, just a simple cake with the family.
only wish of happy birthday came from a friend i kinda expected but wasn't really looking forward to (still i'm very grateful)
somehow, this is yet another of those days i dunno whether to just scream out 'life's a bitch' or be appreciative of what i already have (or just blame myself for the outcome). several times, i visioned myself just drunk n crying to myself, for exactly what i can't pinpoint, but with a very heavy melancholic heart. i feel like a spoilt brat (and hence guilty) but then, i don't really feel guilty (anybody understands that irony?)
i'm 21yo now, n counting.. like a flash of light, childhood memories float so real yet so distant in my mind.
alright, i need to rant. life sucks. fuck my life.
to engrave in memory or to bury foreva?
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